I really love my boyfriend more than anything in the world. He has just been hitting a nerve lately. I don’t know if it’s just my depression and winter blues or what. It just seems like I’m snapping at him a lot more than usual, and getting upset and crying. It’s no big thing, just all these little things. Like he does these silly rap rhyme things, which are funny every once and a while, but it’s ALL THE TIME. It’s like he is giving a play by play on everything I do. Brushing my teeth, drinking water, texting on my phone….. I don’t think he even realizes how much he actually does it. It drives me nuts!

It also bugs me that he never wants to do anything but sit at his computer. I mean, if that’s what he enjoys then fine, but it would be nice if sometimes it felt like he actually wanted to spend time with me. He thinks dates are pointless. He doesn’t understand that it’s nice to break the pattern and go out to eat or to a movie where we have one on one time with no distractions. I guess it would just be nice if he was romantic every once and a while. Like getting flowers. I think it would be nice to get flowers. Not every week. Just on a random day, for no reason. I guess I would just like to feel more loved and appreciated.

I don’t really know how to let these things just slide off. I’ve never been good at just brushing things off. Don’t get me wrong, we have a great time together. He makes me laugh and smile. He sticks with me through all my self harm problems and depression, and takes care of me when I’m sick. He watches the Bachelor, dance moms, and say yes to the dress with me. I just wish I could find a way to brush off the things that bug me or when I talk to him about it, he would keep in mind that it bugs me and make an effort to stop.